It's Snowing

So it just snowed about a foot and half in the local mountains. I am an avid snowboarder, So very "amped" about that. So I sit up late thinking about life. Snowboarding, Love. Lost love. why love? I see her and I can't have her. Why? You can see how my train of thought could lead together on this one.

Snow= Love

Love= Loves that I once had and lost

Lost= hurt, my heart hurts


I don't understand it. All the words that I try to use to explain don't come close to the feeling of a lost love. As much as I know about love, "which isn't much" I know that I loved someone. I couldn't bring myself to accept their love. I couldn't believe that they would love person like me. A person who fails. A person who can't give themselves a straight answer about life. Why couldn't I just accept it. Let it in. Take it and everything that came with it. But no, I couldn't. Love= Lost.

I really don't mean to make this blog about mostly sad things. Sad times in life. but I find when I am alone. With no one else around. I am sad. like I can't just be. Simply, be with myself. I am uncomfortable. "I need to call someone, I need to do something!" I can't just sit there and experience time on my own. At this point in my life, going to sleep is the hardest thing that I can do. I would rather stay up, then sit there, thinking to myself. I hate it. I want peace with myself. I want to know that everything is going to be OK. That something, like snow! is going to cover me. Keep me safe. Cover up everything that I have done or had done to me. And I can just be. Just be ME.

Snow= Love

Love= Me

Love= Myself


As I develop this blog, I want to learn how to relate to people. How can I write so that more people can relate. That someone can take some words on this page and connect it to their lives. I hope that it can be achieved. I am going to have another author join me in this task, hope maintain and kind of openness and honesty about life. Common life. For I don't want this to be purely one sided blog, but have the opinion of more then one. So more people can relate.

-D