smoke and coffee

So, well Life has taken it's toll. I wouldn't even say it's life. Its my attempt to ignore life. To stop attempting, to stop moving forward. To even sit back and look at where I am going. What I am thinking about. To digest all the feelings and emotions that are running through my head day by day.
I am surprised I couldn't even take the time to write anything in this post. My motive was not who even read it, but that I was getting my thoughts out on paper. Writing them down and taking a glance at my current state of being. Why can't I even do that? I feel better when I do. I feel I can take life on better when I do. Actually take it all in. ok. so. Here it is.


Wake up, good morning. It's ok to start over. It's ok to try again. As long as tomorrow is tomorrow and today is right now we have time. We have time to look. We have time to stop and cut the flowers and give them to someone we care about. Write down something we care about. Not of selfish ambition to simply hear myself, hear what I am saying and say "damn I am complexed"(haha) I have time to give myself a break and reflect on it all and why I do what I do. Tomorrow is a new day. Have smoke, drink a coffee and take it all in.

-D