It's Raining

It's the first post. I feel that this should be the post that explains why I made this blog. I made it for a simple reason. To hopefully relate with one or two people out there. I have no idea what sort of influence I should have or what effect my words have on anything. I am a person simply writing to write. Common things. Ideas, concepts, struggles and mishaps of the everyday common life. How I see it. Through my common eyes.

So it's raining. Normally a very welcomed experience that I love to indulge myself in. but today I don't feel like it. I feel like being depressed. I guess I just have myself to blame. Do we ever purposefully make ourselves depressed. Depressed just for the sake of being depressed. To see if you can really feel depressed. Surprisingly it's not to far off for me in emotions right now. I can easily achieve the feeling.
As I sit and drink a glass of wine I think of anyone else. anyone else out there that can relate with the single feeling that I am having at this moment. Maybe a motivator of loneliness or want of something more. Or simply for someone to relate with me. So, my Dad told me yesterday to create a blog.

"A blog of your feelings and thoughts and just make it. Don't care who reads it or why, but just do it. "

I kind of laughed and thought it was stupid...well here I am. I am not a skilled writer of any sort or a person that is trying to pursue being a author. lol Again, just a common person wanting to see if anyone else relates in this world. I am interested to see where this is going to go. Aren't you? (the fictitious person that I think is reading this!) Well keep reading, check in once and a while a see what a screw up like me has written about this life. A life that's hard.

Feeling: depressed and wanting. Wanting for something more then simply a feeling that lasts only a moment. A feeling that can take me to tomorrow. "wow, kinda emo. lol"

(oh when I put stuff in quotes, they are commentary on what I think about what I am writing. I think I can write things and sit back and look at what I wrote and go "fucking stupid.")

So there it is, the first post. Hopefully more to come. With my common life getting in the way, I will update as much as possible.

-D